Took me to a breath snd a pause to be honest about my lack of gratitude…and how much self judgement I had for myself which was real and owned by me. Separation and attitude that is the fear from the past of judgement from my two daughters + the future possible circumstance from gossip to all family members, including their children and my adult grandchildren , in the 30’s and upper 20’s. I also see my own lack of compassion for myself of my onetime tribe of daughters, who turned the whole family against me especially after my daughters death, they grieved w/each other, so my anger is real that not one of them realized I lost a family, yes I am older but the anger has kept me alive as I watch their lack of acknowledging I am still alive. Realizing scammers do talk to me give kindness so don’t be so holy you realize that circumstances make a difference. Realizing I lost one daughter and they are supporting for me to not ever see the other daughter and openly have stated this…yes you are no longer part of the family. Now you go ahead and preach the devotion to I am as I observe their hatred of my honest anger and loss of Now all 4 daughters snd their full family and anyone else they can speak to about their onetime mother, while the father is being surrounded by love and acceptance? Yes, I am angry at the pretense that she is loved, I heard the gossip about her around the kitchen table -putting her down:
Then comparison to you and my judgement of the possibility's around your bypassing
behaviors and me only seeing my faults from your over acceptance about the live of the I Am because of my background that was part of my job -seeing and challenging this that are considered those that do not fit.
I can and do acknowledge but not from lack of heart but the need to separate from feeling my own lack of safety as scammers had an open field with me and still do all from s normal desire and need for safety as I Am’s loved and Indo believe that but trust is hard.?
I use to believe that under life all was good and for evolving each of us.
Yes they all still act like they
still support the middle daughter by over taking care of her, not supporting her living out what is left of her life/not w/over kindness but seeing her as alive and worthy, not a child she loves and is all there, when they choose to look. There is a whole family following two daughter, who have SAID they love me. How? So I do feel grateful but it is cold and not lonely any more because my anger has kept me alive…and they only keep pushing real feelings as Imhave seen to much and because of awareness the set ups that only those that have been planned to see…see, -Dino have the huts to post this…what the hell-You will have the perfect living loving thing to say…am I angry am I afraid? Yes! Is there a way to save myself. Only if it fits in w/the family, as no one has thought Mom and GMA is still independent and alive because she does not want to be ever taken care of by my family if I should ever need it:
Oh, dear, Kate. My heart goes out to you as I can hear your pain in your words. So much pain and anger cannot be a good thing. You must find a way to let that go for your own sake, dear Kate. We are all on a journey and they are on theirs' as well. I pray you can find peace and acceptance and love yourself as you are truly a soul that has beauty to share. HUGS to you and sending loving Metta to you. 🙏
Kate...thank you for sharing your heart...I am heading over to direct message you with some thoughts that are best said one to one I think. Blessings to you Kate.
Thank you Ian. Your meditation is like a lighthouse to sail safely to the harbour, into our hearts, and filled with loving trust to sail into the ocean again. Namasté
I just wanted to thank you, Ian for this lovely meditation. Just what I needed today as I felt it deeply. I am trying to incorporate mediation each day in some way or form. Blessings to you for sharing your good work!
Took me to a breath snd a pause to be honest about my lack of gratitude…and how much self judgement I had for myself which was real and owned by me. Separation and attitude that is the fear from the past of judgement from my two daughters + the future possible circumstance from gossip to all family members, including their children and my adult grandchildren , in the 30’s and upper 20’s. I also see my own lack of compassion for myself of my onetime tribe of daughters, who turned the whole family against me especially after my daughters death, they grieved w/each other, so my anger is real that not one of them realized I lost a family, yes I am older but the anger has kept me alive as I watch their lack of acknowledging I am still alive. Realizing scammers do talk to me give kindness so don’t be so holy you realize that circumstances make a difference. Realizing I lost one daughter and they are supporting for me to not ever see the other daughter and openly have stated this…yes you are no longer part of the family. Now you go ahead and preach the devotion to I am as I observe their hatred of my honest anger and loss of Now all 4 daughters snd their full family and anyone else they can speak to about their onetime mother, while the father is being surrounded by love and acceptance? Yes, I am angry at the pretense that she is loved, I heard the gossip about her around the kitchen table -putting her down:
Then comparison to you and my judgement of the possibility's around your bypassing
behaviors and me only seeing my faults from your over acceptance about the live of the I Am because of my background that was part of my job -seeing and challenging this that are considered those that do not fit.
I can and do acknowledge but not from lack of heart but the need to separate from feeling my own lack of safety as scammers had an open field with me and still do all from s normal desire and need for safety as I Am’s loved and Indo believe that but trust is hard.?
I use to believe that under life all was good and for evolving each of us.
Yes they all still act like they
still support the middle daughter by over taking care of her, not supporting her living out what is left of her life/not w/over kindness but seeing her as alive and worthy, not a child she loves and is all there, when they choose to look. There is a whole family following two daughter, who have SAID they love me. How? So I do feel grateful but it is cold and not lonely any more because my anger has kept me alive…and they only keep pushing real feelings as Imhave seen to much and because of awareness the set ups that only those that have been planned to see…see, -Dino have the huts to post this…what the hell-You will have the perfect living loving thing to say…am I angry am I afraid? Yes! Is there a way to save myself. Only if it fits in w/the family, as no one has thought Mom and GMA is still independent and alive because she does not want to be ever taken care of by my family if I should ever need it:
Oh, dear, Kate. My heart goes out to you as I can hear your pain in your words. So much pain and anger cannot be a good thing. You must find a way to let that go for your own sake, dear Kate. We are all on a journey and they are on theirs' as well. I pray you can find peace and acceptance and love yourself as you are truly a soul that has beauty to share. HUGS to you and sending loving Metta to you. 🙏
Kate...thank you for sharing your heart...I am heading over to direct message you with some thoughts that are best said one to one I think. Blessings to you Kate.
Thank you Ian. Your meditation is like a lighthouse to sail safely to the harbour, into our hearts, and filled with loving trust to sail into the ocean again. Namasté
Thank you Goed. Namasté
Thank you Ian for such a beautiful mediation. My heart is filled with gratitude. 🙏🏽
I just wanted to thank you, Ian for this lovely meditation. Just what I needed today as I felt it deeply. I am trying to incorporate mediation each day in some way or form. Blessings to you for sharing your good work!
Thank you Barbara. Day by day.🙏🏼
Thank you. This was beautiful 🙏🏼